Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Those damn ballerinas!

Sometimes I wish I was a ballerina. They're just too cool with all their leaps and twists and turns. I wish I could do that. Maybe I should stretch more?

Random thought of the day-There is lovely bottle of silver sparkly nail polish next to me.

Random conversation of the day-
Friend-I love how you do absolutely nothing in school and you get away with it.
Me-Ha ha, thanks. I do try.

Monday, May 4, 2009

It's okay.

It's okay. Everything is going to be fine. Don't worry. Everything is okay.

I'm going to keep feeding this sentence to myself until it becomes true. So far it's working. Later I'll read Wuthering Heights until I cry and drink Coke until I fall asleep with the sweetness still saturating my tongue.

Basically, a lot of things keep hitting me. It seems like it's one thing after another. Like gunshots, pelting my chest. Bam. Bam. Bam. Maybe this is some kind of test for my endurance...well, I'm going to keep fighting. I will not be broken this easily.

Change is also looming on my horizon. I'm not exactly the biggest fan of change, in fact, I hate it. It's just standing there, glowing in the distance and it's not like I can run sprinting towards it, throwing caution to the wind and forgetting all of my cares. Time cannot be quickened by us. So I stand, waiting, watching, preparing myself for what is to come. I say my heartfelt goodbyes and welcome the strangers into my life who I know will spin my life around. It's necessary, but I can't help feeling a little out of control, a little anxious.

Sorry. I do feel better now.

Random conversation of the day-
My sister's friend-Who's a cutie?
My dog-*folds his ears back*
My sister's friend-Who's a little baby craw fish cutie puppy baby?
Me-Um? Hah?
My dog-Grrrrrrrr...
My sister's friend-Why is he growling? Puppy baby, sometimes you're a nice kitten, but sometimes you're a meanie!

Random thought of the day-Skyway Avenue by We the Kings is playing on Pandora right now.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Honestly, honestly, honestly.

Today I woke up at six on a Saturday. No, I'm not insane, I had to go to Saturday school. Fun. It really wasn't so bad. I've been about once every year for the past three years. I'm such a rebel. Two of my friends were there with me, so that also lightened my mood considerably. I passed my seemingly eternal sentence by writing and reading.

When it comes to my writing I'm very strange. Really, take my word for it. I have never shown anyone anything that I've written seriously. This may be because it's so important to me that I don't want to be completely vulnerable like that without being sure that I've done the best I possibly can. Who knows. Normally I save the majority of my writing onto my laptop. Everything else is written into one of my black and white 'writing journals'. Normally, I carry one of these with me as often as possible. You never know when you'll have a sudden burst of creativity and feel the need to write down your thoughts before they slip away. At least, that's what I do.

On a happier note I got my check in the mail yesterday. About once a month I get paid for babysitting my little sisters while my mother works courtesy of my church. It's a marvelous arrangement. So, I'll be blowing through that money as quickly as possible. Faster than the big bad wolf blew down the little pig's house made of straw.

Random conversation of the day-
Gay guy-You can always come at my house.
Straight guy-Huh?
Gay guy-Yeah, you can come and live with me. I only have one rule, you can't wear any clothes. You're comfortable taking pictures for the Internet naked, aren't you?
Straight guy-Um...no. I...I...um?
Me-Let's face it, you're never going to get an offer like that again.
Straight guy-I'll pass.
Gay guy-I had to try!

Random thought of the day-
Today I spent six dollars on coffee only to leave it in my friend's car for five hours, letting it spoil in the hot Southern sun. Wonderful.